Showing posts with label sadface. Show all posts
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Thursday, January 31, 2013

A is for Adrian

     I have tried to write this post several times this week, for some reason the words never sound right. So instead I will just tell the story, my story about a friend. Not just any friend, but someone who I hold close to my heart and I know I'm not the only one. For those of you who have been reading my blog from the beginning you know him too. He is an A in many of my stories. He was an avid reader of my blog, often commenting on my ridiculous stories and random musings.

     I awoke especially early Monday morning, groggy and half alive to a blaring alarm. I set the alarm the night before in hopes to catch A online before his Monday was over. As I rolled over to shut the alarm on my phone off I saw I had a message. Bleary eyed I squinted to make out the message. It was from C...it read: A is dead.


     A is for Adrian. Adrian, this is my letter to you...


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Don't underestimate the things that I might do

     Goodbyes, for lack of a better word, suck. They don't just suck, but I am epically horrible at them. I am not only incapable of doing a goodbye justice, but I feel as if I am in limbo. In limbo to say hello again. Not simply to the people I am leaving behind (365 days...more or less), but to the people I have left behind (enam hari hari...er I don't understand this time change thing, so more or less).

     No one said the life of a vagrant was easy (it's not). I may never get it right. I've had to say too many goodbyes in the past 48 hours and not enough hellos. The hellos I have been able to say always end with a 'Goodbye, I'm sorry we didn't have more time, if you are ever in the US please let me know.' I can say I will be back in a year all day long, but no one will believe me until that (as of now) unaffordable ticket is booked again.

     Arriving at home has begun to settle in. I miss my home...terribly. Leaving my home away from home is being slapped across my face. There are some people I almost refuse to say 'bye' to; because it is just too freakin' hard. I wish I had something more profound, or even more positive to say, but I don't. It's like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. C'est la vie et c'est ma vie.

     Of course, if I could do it all over again I would, every G-damned minute. But fuck, I will miss you guys, and 'fouk' I miss you guys.

-M